So it's been over a month since I broke up with the ex. I've still been going strong against the urge to talk to him. I want to all the time, but I know that if I do it, I will end up in the same spot I was in a few months ago. I'm just done with all that. I'm done being unhappy. I've found someone to make me happy, someone who is there for me when I need him. I went gun shopping with said person and then we went eat at iHop. He's pretty sweet.
I got another voicemail from the ex today. It was over 3 minutes, of course. And then to emphasize that voicemail, he texted me. I was having a great day too :/
All of this happened when I was hanging out with "Blue". He managed to cheer me up, like he almost always manages to do. But it's still a bummer.
I'm trying to move on and not dwell on the past. But ex keeps trying to pull me into it.
I'm not emotionally stable enough to deal with all of that right now. It's so depressing to me. And I don't always know exactly how to handle my feelings.
Kinda hard to handle those when the other party is always up my butt about sitting down and having a conversation. I don't want a conversation. I want you to leave me the fuck alone. You think this shit is hard for you? (That's what she said) It's hard for me too.
I wasted two and a half years on your sorry self. You treated me like a stupid piece of trash that was only good for having sex with.
Well fuck you, bitch.
I am a brilliant mind. I knew every time you lied to me. I waited though, hoping you would come around and tell me the truth. Imagine the shock I had when you didn't (not). I'm more than just a good lay, my dear. I have a beautiful body and a beautiful brain. I deserved to be taken out every once in a while without having to pay my own way. I deserve to be told I'm beautiful every once in a while for no reason, no just because you want to have sex. I deserve that passionate touch for no specific reason. The way you touched me when you were ready grossed me out. You'd changed so much in the past few years that I didn't even recognize you. Maybe it was me who changed though...
Anyways.
There is no chance of us getting back together so please do not waste your time nor mine. I'm not putting up with it like I did for 2.5 years. So screw you. Leave me alone.
