I don't think my ass has gotten that fat.
I went out and bought two new pairs though. Hopefully these stay together for a long time.
Time for my ass to get back into the gym for real though.
Monday, June 24, 2013
Saturday, June 22, 2013
Guess who's back. Back again.
Janie's back.
Tell some men.
Because I'm also single.
Oh goodness. I think i was still single the last time I was on here.
I just ended what was a whirlwind kinda thing. I really liked "LT Ginger". He was such a sweet guy, but he suffers from terrible depression. It put a huge rift in our relationship because, well, I have it also. And there is only so much ignoring that I can take until I say "fuck it" and drive to his place, banging on his door demanding an answer. Or an "I don't want you around anymore" that's all I needed. I got my "I don't want you around. I'm sorry I had to do it this way." Cried a few tears and then moved on. It's really better if I don't let him control my emotional being. It's already extremely fragile and to let someone as emotionally unstable as that to handle it is just a huge mistake. I am sad. Please, don't get me wrong. But I also realize that it's better this way. I'm going to miss his company and his arms. But I know that it wasn't ever going to turn into anything more, which is kind of what I want.
I have some good news though as far as my jobs go.
I have two jobs now.
I still work at the restaurant, but I now also work at the local airport. I'm really excited about this. I love airplanes and I've been after this job for a while now.
I received a weird promotion at work. Instead of waiting tables, I'll be at the register, tending to customer needs, making sure people are doing their jobs, following code. I'm excited because this also means I get another hefty raise :) and I get to hire and fire at will. So bitches at work better watch out. I'm tired of the shitty attitudes I see from them. I can do something about it now. So they better watch it.
I also have been going to school. It's been difficult. I don't understand math at all. And I'm taking that along with anatomy 2. The prof for A&P is awesome so I don't have a problem with that class. It's the math I'm concerned about. I stink at it and since my math person just broke up with me today, I'm just going to have to try double hard at getting a passing grade in it.
2nd to last thing:
I've started living a healthier lifestyle. I only eat one sweet per week. My day is tomorrow. I'm going to the local cupcake shop and getting the stuffed french toast cupcake which is amazing. I wish they'd had them today so I could eat my feelings away. I've also cut out all soda. Just water and 100% fruit juice all day every day. I can see a different in my body which is nice, but I can also feel a difference in the way my body reacts to things. It's also nice. I've been going to the gym. Working out. Getting back into shape. Now that I'm single, I think, why not? I have nothing better to do.
Last thing (I promise!)
Okay, so since I'll have extra cash coming in, I'm going to start saving up for certain things
1) School and loans
2) A freaking gun. I've been wanting a 9mm Taurus Millenium Pro G2 for FOREVER. Now, hopefully, I'll have the cash for it.
3) Vibrams. I've been wanting them for a while.
4) A new bed. I've had this one since I was in 4th grade. Yepp. I was like 9 last time I got a new bed. Meaning this one is almost 15 years old. Same mattress and box spring. I need something better than this. I'm probably laying on straight springs right now lmao.
So... I'm sorry this hasn't been updated in a long time. I've had a lot of things going on and a lot to work out in my life. But just venting on here has made my mind quieter tonight which I needed.
Anyways, have a good one, y'all!
Janie Marie
Tell some men.
Because I'm also single.
Oh goodness. I think i was still single the last time I was on here.
I just ended what was a whirlwind kinda thing. I really liked "LT Ginger". He was such a sweet guy, but he suffers from terrible depression. It put a huge rift in our relationship because, well, I have it also. And there is only so much ignoring that I can take until I say "fuck it" and drive to his place, banging on his door demanding an answer. Or an "I don't want you around anymore" that's all I needed. I got my "I don't want you around. I'm sorry I had to do it this way." Cried a few tears and then moved on. It's really better if I don't let him control my emotional being. It's already extremely fragile and to let someone as emotionally unstable as that to handle it is just a huge mistake. I am sad. Please, don't get me wrong. But I also realize that it's better this way. I'm going to miss his company and his arms. But I know that it wasn't ever going to turn into anything more, which is kind of what I want.
I have some good news though as far as my jobs go.
I have two jobs now.
I still work at the restaurant, but I now also work at the local airport. I'm really excited about this. I love airplanes and I've been after this job for a while now.
I received a weird promotion at work. Instead of waiting tables, I'll be at the register, tending to customer needs, making sure people are doing their jobs, following code. I'm excited because this also means I get another hefty raise :) and I get to hire and fire at will. So bitches at work better watch out. I'm tired of the shitty attitudes I see from them. I can do something about it now. So they better watch it.
I also have been going to school. It's been difficult. I don't understand math at all. And I'm taking that along with anatomy 2. The prof for A&P is awesome so I don't have a problem with that class. It's the math I'm concerned about. I stink at it and since my math person just broke up with me today, I'm just going to have to try double hard at getting a passing grade in it.
2nd to last thing:
I've started living a healthier lifestyle. I only eat one sweet per week. My day is tomorrow. I'm going to the local cupcake shop and getting the stuffed french toast cupcake which is amazing. I wish they'd had them today so I could eat my feelings away. I've also cut out all soda. Just water and 100% fruit juice all day every day. I can see a different in my body which is nice, but I can also feel a difference in the way my body reacts to things. It's also nice. I've been going to the gym. Working out. Getting back into shape. Now that I'm single, I think, why not? I have nothing better to do.
Last thing (I promise!)
Okay, so since I'll have extra cash coming in, I'm going to start saving up for certain things
1) School and loans
2) A freaking gun. I've been wanting a 9mm Taurus Millenium Pro G2 for FOREVER. Now, hopefully, I'll have the cash for it.
3) Vibrams. I've been wanting them for a while.
4) A new bed. I've had this one since I was in 4th grade. Yepp. I was like 9 last time I got a new bed. Meaning this one is almost 15 years old. Same mattress and box spring. I need something better than this. I'm probably laying on straight springs right now lmao.
So... I'm sorry this hasn't been updated in a long time. I've had a lot of things going on and a lot to work out in my life. But just venting on here has made my mind quieter tonight which I needed.
Anyways, have a good one, y'all!
Janie Marie
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